So it's 2 am right now, and yesterday, I went to my school because Cecilio wanted to take graduation photos of me...well, my future mother in law wants to send them to their relatives in the Philippines too. But I will also start designing my announcements. My actual graduation ceremony is on the 23rd. I almost can't believe it, especially because I had some doubts about it (I kinda struggled with my last semester at school, and hoping I can redeem myself during the summer). I know despite my doubts and fears, once I stand on the stage, it'll feel liberating. I was on the 8 year plan, and I know that most college-goers would totally turn their nose up on that, but the fact was that I pushed through even despite my lupus flares and losing my dad. I don't want to prop myself up like a hero because I still have struggles. And as I am getting older (okay, 25 is not that old...), I am realizing that everyone has a different path in life. Society has this way of making us believe that if we don't graduate by 20–21 or get married by 25, then something is wrong. But each and everyone is unique, and has different life situations and aspirations.
I worry about finding a job. Competition scares me, and at times I don't feel up to par. I also had a huge breakdown on Thursday because of the spring show on Monday, and I am worried about my portfolio pieces through school will look mediocre to everyone else. But I felt better letting it out, knowing...maybe a small part of me knows that things will be ok.
Phew! That was heavy. On a light-hearted note, I am loving my makeup for these photos. I actually kept pulling the car mirror down to look at myself. Cecilio was all like, "Why do women love looking at themselves in the car mirrors?!" (he was also referring to his mom and sisters) and I respond with, "well they like how they look and want to make sure their face or makeup are on fleek!" haha. This is definitely the makeup I will be wearing for graduation, but maybe a different color for the crease.
Face:
Benefit Professional
MUFE HD Foundation (128)
NYX Matte Bronzer (Medium)
MAC Blush (Peachykeen)
Colourpop Highlighter (Wisp)
Eyes:
Coastal Scents Revealed 2 Palette
NYX Eyebrow Cake Powder (Dark Brown)
Benefit Roller Lash Mascara
Rimmel Scandaleyes Gel Liner (Black)
Urban Decay 24/7 Glide-on Eye Pencil (Zero)
Lips:
Too Faced Lip Insurance
MAC Lipstick (Retro)
Here is a little selfie before Cecilio came and picked me up
Our selfie. It was windy today which is why my hair is messed up. And I only appear taller because I'm on a step and wearing heels. I know my future is bright because he's in it. I would never have known that 8 years ago when we found each other on Myspace and then met in our classes together at our old community college, that he would be the one I would end up marrying. I am so so blessed and happy.
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